Keeping busy with BIG plans


As you may have noticed, I have had other things on my mind lately. Various projects I’ve been working on and my wordpress blog here isn’t getting the attention it deserves.

I appoligize to all you none existant audience that might be somewhat interested in what I have to say.

So my point is that, even thought I’ve had this blog set up for about 9 months now, which I can’t even believe its been that long. I’m not ready to let it go, in fact, i’d like to keep it alive forever since really, it’s my first step into many things. My first website published for the world to see, my first blog ever, my first ever writing that I ever decided to do in a none educational atmosphere, the first place I shared more thoughts and actions than with any other person (other than my wife) and a couple more firsts I can’t think of right now.

This blog was a gateway into the internet that has had actual views, comments and I really appreciate and cherish that. I can’t possibly let this place go just because I’ve started something that has grown much faster and with a different end goal.

I’ve been working on HealthGainCenter.Com for the past 2 and half weeks and i’ve been hitting it hard. I’ve invested in my own domain and I spend everyday looking for ways to make it better, something I have not done here on My Thought Pattern.

What I might of forgotten is that this place is actually suppose to be MY THOUGHT PATTERN! So I do feel obliged to share it with you.

I created since its something I became pationate about, and something I figured I would have no problem writing about since its constantly on my mind. Its also a place where I can share my struggles with gaining weight and at the same time, help out those people who can relate. I plan to grow this website to encompass alot of different aspects of health, and I don’t think I’ll ever be short on ideas with something so valuable to our life.

If you have a minute, I urge you to come take a look and even drop a comment or suggest on the website to let me know if you agree or if I should improve something.

Just today I did a big overhaul of the appearance of the website, hopefully its for the best.

I will be dropping more updates as I go onto you guys.

Thank you!


My new website is LIVE!


Hello everyone, I’ve been working on a side project for some time now. As you have noticed, I haven’t been posting too many posts, but I have a good reason for it. I have been working on a new Web-Site for some time now and it finally began its life.

Its in the early stages of devellopment but I like where its going and plan on putting alot of hors into it every week.

If your reading this then you might have a minute to come check it out. Maybe leave a comment or suggestion on something that needs improvement here.

What made me start this website is related to my last post and my last blog I created called The Cash Farm. i’ve been searching for ways to earn with the help of the internet for some time now. I believe I’ve found exaclty what I was looking for and I couln’t be happier.

It all started with me stumbling onto Wealthy Affiliates.

I’ve seen it before but didn’t really pay much attention. I just recently stumbled upon it again and saw that they now offer a 0$ plan. No credit cards, no sensitive information to give out. Just join and see what they are all about.

I was pleasantly surprised. They do try to up sell their premium plan but in all honesty, its worth the coin, the beauty is thatthey give 7 days of premium status so you can see what its all about, after that they cut off you extra privileges but you still have the starter account and its extremely helpfull for anyone starting out.

What really sold me was the huge community and the amount of people working on similar goals willing to help and motivate you along the way. People post their first hard earned dollars and explain how they got to it. The motivation is whats worth the time to take a look for yourself.

If making money online is a goal of yours, then I suggest you come take a look here.

You still need to put time and effort towards it but with their tools and help, it makes it alot more achievable. You get 2 free websites to work with, different seo tools and help from the whole community as well as the experts who created Wealthy Affiliates.

Anywho, thanks for ready and I’ll try to keep the posts up since I will be working mostly on my other site now.

The Difference!


So I decided to list the differences that I perceive between Canada and Russia. Mostly because I’d like to have somewhere to write them down since I often get asked what they are. Since I get asked so often, I thought it might be something of interest and worth typing up..aaand I just don’t know what to write about so thats whatchu get.

So what I noticed right away, is the absence of a lot of different wildlife that I was used to seeing everyday back in Canada. I might of taken it for granted but rabbits, squirels, deer, racoons, the occasional bear, coyotes, foxes, turkeys and i’m sure i’m missing some species but yeah, thats a lot compared to here. So far I’ve met a lot of dogs, a lot of cats and the usual birds, like robins and pigeons and the such. Last week I heard of a bear coming onto one of the neighboring towns but apparently it hasn’t happened in a really long time and everyone I asked told me it was the first time they heard about a bear coming this close to the city. My guess is that the city itself is much older than Canada in general so that might explain why everything is so scarce.

What caught my attention the most are the dogs. They definitely bring something to the city. I know there are dogs specifically trained to help those who are blind go for walks or do their groceries, but when you see an average street dog walk up to an intersection and either look BOTH ways before crossing or wait for the pedestrian light to change to green before going is just great. It looks like the dogs blend in with society and have their own thing going on. Something i’d advise the groundhogs back in Canada to learn… look both ways.

Today is THE DAY!


Today is the day,

Today is the day I can say.


About 8 months ago, the process began. My fight to stay in Russia began, and was I ever the underdog in this situation. At times I thought they made the process impossible on purpose. It seemed like the country tried to do what it can to get me to give up the idea of getting my temporary residence. I admit some mistakes where made by me misunderstanding and failing to dig deeper for information, but thanks to some people who genuinely put their efforts into making sure everything gets done, I can finally relax (barely) but at least have that off of my shoulders and not have my wife worry about me leaving her for another 3 months. I can finally concentrate on moving forward without worrying about being stunned again.

I genuinely like this country no matter whats being said and how things are being handled. The peoples attitude mirror a very realistic and human way of being. I feel at home here.

I might not have any friends here but my wife is all I need and I’m meeting new people and slowly making connections even thought I’ve never been one to do so. It helps that I work with people now instead of with milk, in a warehouse. Milk has its percs, I enjoyed being able to get lost in my thoughts and just work throught my shift but wokring with people is more satisfying. Human to human relations force me to work on my speech and my people skills.

Forces me to put aside being shy.

One of my worst qualities.

Being shy.

I am getting better though. I can see the progress and i’m liking it. I think this blog is also in a way that I work with that even though I don’t really have to speak to anyone face to face, I still get things out. I must say, I read my posts and it looks like I have horrible structure and my thoughts spread into multiple unrelated branches.

But hey, its a learning process. I just hope it’ll also improve.

Growing a Pair

I often take for granted how planes expanded our travel boundaries and with that our minds. To be able to see the different parts of the world within 24hrs is nothing short of a miracle. But it definitely works against you when your are forced to leave someone you love and head back half way around the world. The distance really puts it all into perspective of how little you can do to help, change or affect another persons life. My first career path that I chose as a child, to become a pilot. 10 years down the line, I decide I won’t have it as a career. As fun as it can be to travel constantly to different parts of the world, and operate one of the coolest machines created over the last century, it isn’t for me. To leave your loved ones for long periods of time, I cannot do. I would of probably have become a great pilot, and truth be told, I will one day still pursue my dream. But not as a career, more of a hobby. The risk and responsibility one takes upon himself is too great, I wasn’t ready for it. One slight mistake and lives vanish. There are many professions that have hundreds sometimes thousands of peoples lives on the line, and as I stand today, I am not able to take that upon myself… just yet… But i’d just like to say RESPECT to those professionals who do, and have the balls, patience and self discipline to accomplish those goals. Because of people like them, society is able to move forward.

Is my Wrong your Right?

On the plane heading to Canada from Russia. Have to say this might be the best time to write since there really isn’t anywhere I can go or anything else I can do. Everything seems bleak and it feels like sadness and depression is just around the corner. Leaving my wife for three months… Feels like its going to be a test, or just plain torture… I miss her already…

I’ve heard of people wanting to have breaks from their second half. There have been times when it would pop up in my mind after a good fight, yet when I see that now its actually happening, against my wish, every ounce of my body isn’t having it. I love my wife to death and its hard to bear the fact that I’m leaving her alone for three months. Yes she has her family, and yes she has some friends, and yes she has our cats to keep her company but I know deep down i’m the only one who can understand her and accept her the way she is, and I know its the same for me.

3 weeks ago I left to Canada for 5 days to get some documents I failed to legalize before heading there in december. Even tho I knew I was coming back, it still broke my heart to be half way around the world from her.
3 months is something I choose not to comprehend right now.
Don’t get me wrong, I am attached to my wife and I will miss her dearly, but what hurts is knowing she is going to be struggling by herself for three months. I have no pity for myself and I do what has to be done when I see a better future for my loved ones. But it isn’t easy.
Going back to my old job for some time. The pay isn’t bad since I’ve been a slave there for about 5 years of my life now. With the current economy in Russia and the difference between the Rouble and Canadian dollar, it will be a much needed boost to our budget. No matter the situation, I try to concentrate on the positive aspects. It will help us out for the next 6 months and relieve some financial burdens that seem to currently affect us. This brings me back to the fact that everything happens for a reason. There are always 2 sides or more to a situation, the trick is picking them out from behind the dark veil of BS.`

I have a bit of a moral dilemma when it comes down to situations like this. I tend to think of other peoples situations and how much more different and extreme they are compared to mine. As a result I feel like I shouldn’t be upset, but better yet relieved that this is the extent of my situation compared to lets say someone who sent their family on a boat to escape the situation in Syria, not knowing if they’ll ever make it to the shores, If someone on board will cause harm to them after you’ve spent your life savings to put them on that ship. Not knowing if the ship will get attacked by the notorious pirates who feast on the mischief of others, and if by some miracle a storm or faulty ship doesn’t become the reason for their demise, the people and or governing body where they land on rejects them or worse.
Is it wrong of me to think of situations like that to put mine into perspective. Is it wrong to pretty much make myself feel better on someone else’s misfortunes. I come across thoughts like these fairly often, and i’m not sure if its ok or not. I have arguments for both sides. I consider myself to have good morals but once again, what I consider might differ completely from what you consider, and whats to say your thoughts on it are wrong? Is it the majority that rules? Or is it the select few who go beyond the common thought who are more than right.

Some thoughts on this would be welcome.
Don’t hesitate to comment or write to me directly.

In the nick of TIME!

Bureaucracy in Russia is ******!


I think I …

I think I made it …

Still hasn’t hit me yet but I have this piece of paper that says all my running and finding and discovering and doing, and redoing, and reredoing and rediscovering and finding out I’m back at ground zero and starting over the finding and discovering wasn’t gone to waste. Even though it came close to it many, many times.

And none of it would of been possible if not for Amazing luck and people made of Gold!

Bureaucracy in Russia……….. Is F****D!

To say the least. Sorry for the foul language, but there really isn’t any other way to say it.

It’s the most complex puzzle of finding the right people and places, getting the right documents and filling them out properly, which tends to differ from person to person. Won’t be going into details about the process since today, Today we celebrate!

I will give a full account of what it takes since its honestly an accomplishment and something I need to share with you readers so you get a taste of the magic.

By now you must think my view of this country has begun its downward spiral, but quite the opposite has happened.

Bureaucracy aside, I was forced to witness one of the most beautiful parts of Russian culture. Something that I didn’t expect from anyone but my closest relatives, I got from people I have never met before. The support and help I received was not only unexpected, but also necessary to a degree where my struggles would of all been useless without it.

The art of the Favor.

My next post title.

“От душы”

Literal translation: from the soul.

A saying in Russia that translates to something coming from the bottom of your heart. A saying that applies to good and bad situations. Another gem here in Russia; if someone tells you off or says some thing nice with emotion. You know it’s real, and there’s no beating around the bush, the straightforwardness is a breath of fresh air. Your never left guessing. No BS so to speak, people just don’t have time for that. Considering how short our lives really are, it’s a beautiful thing.

Ill be back very soon to update on the subjects mentioned. I will be leaving the country and my wife behind for maybe 3 months so I might not have enought time to post too much. I have less than a week left so you can maybe understand where I’m coming from.

Not to worry, I will share everything I can with you in the near future, wasn’t sure at first but I now see there’s a ton of things to talk about and the only way to experience it is to live it for yourself, or get a glimpse through written testimonials which I am now proud to be a part of.